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IWWSWWBT
02:07
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used to think that i love that girl
wrote it where i keep the leaf we found
now i think that there is no world
where she and I feel it in the same town
many attempts but they've never been right
i tried to take those crystals as a sign
but i was wrong to give them that pressure
if we were soulmates we would be together
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look in the mirror, who's looking back?
hands are on the sink and i lean in close.
if i stare long enough, he whispers, "i don't know"
i'm not sure if i've ever known
i think it's right, then it turns out wrong
i thought that by now that i would feel whole
i'm trying to learn what's good about myself
have to take the good things
and try to leave the bad things out
a habit of wanting things out of reach
so lately i try to focus more on me
and fill up my space independently
it's much harder than it seems
it's one step forward and then right back three
little confidence, big insecurity
don't know (who) what i am
i'm concerned about (who) what i'll be
gotta decide right now how good i wanna be
i wanna be sweet
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do you
03:39
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Do you remember how we always
Used to go to the tennis court
Or by the river, sit on the rocks,
Black dog left an offering
I miss your cat
Do you remember that time that I
Finally killed her
She had had enough
Finger bullets for a lifetime,
She gave up
I called you crying
I never did that before to anyone
Sometimes I still wear your shirt and
Think of all the things I said
I said that you felt like my family
Then I said things I regret
I said please don’t talk to me
And now I wish I hadn’t said that
I thought of telling you I’m sorry
But I worried it’d make you sad
Or maybe you would be mad
Or maybe you would be glad
Do you remember
I remember everyday
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just a little different
01:31
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i guess it's been a year or two
but we're supposed to see each other soon
thinking how i cried when i heard your name
now i'm able just to say hey, hey
and i'm literally counting down the days
didn't expect to feel the same, just a little different
i told my therapist about you
and he said, "that's really cute"
thinking how you left me messages
everywhere and even on my fridge
haven't taken them down since
and i'm literally counting down the days
didn't expect to feel the same, just a little different
just a little different
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if
01:45
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if I was a screaming person, I'd a 100% scream about it, 100% scream about it
there's so much to yell about, I need a subway train to hide my shout
I don't know what'll happen to me
stupid to think that it could be easy, like there's no risk in life, didn't know I was naive
everything seems scary now, I felt better when the world was shut down
it was easy to be inside my head, now everything's open I can't get outta bed
sometimes I still think about you, but I'm trying hard to find my own truth
it's like it's me or you and I have to choose
maybe my little heart doesn't have enough room
not even sure what I'm talking about, it's like I know and then there's so much doubt
it feels wrong to fantasize, I wish I could just close my eyes
if I was a screaming person, I'd a 100% scream about it
try to never think of it again
no room for progress if you're stuck in "back then"
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6. |
always with the what ifs
04:29
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Don’t know what I’m doing now in any capacity
I sit at home alone thinking bout what could be
But there’s always a limit: a lack of implementing
I never do it right
I never have the time
Don’t think bout it enough
I stop cause it gets tough, isn’t it supposed to be easy?
“Don’t know what I’m doing now” is how it always seems to be
I get so excited and then I just wanna leave
I always go and it scares me and makes me feel like
I’ll never get it right
It’s never the right time
I never try enough
I think I’m scared of love
Now I know why I put myself back in the same old scenes
But how can I be scared of love if I don’t know what that could mean?
Thought I’d felt it before this
But that’s cause I’m an idiot
With really just one wish
And that’s to fall in love, but
I’ll never get it right
It’s never the right time
Cause
Everything that I’ve felt
Was meant for someone else, when it should’ve been for me
I said it out loud and it made me feel kinda free: “I’m afraid to love myself cause then who will I be?”
This is really hard for me, but I’ll keep on trying
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in my blood
02:03
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Hiked up to the gorge today
Light so dim that it altered time
Felt an itching on my lips
About halfway, I let it slip:
Stories from back when I was with you
Revealing my irrational truth
Logically, it didn't work, but
I've never felt that way about a girl
Try to shove it down, but it comes up
Even when I don't say it does
Wish that I could stop thinking about you, but
You're in my blood, what else can I do?
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all my love
00:56
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i wanna give you all my love, but i don't think i could afford it
now and then feel like i say too much, but you ask, "by who's standards?"
reminds me it's good to feel a lot and i can't help it, i'm crying
my heart, you have it
i wanna give you all my love, but i don't think i could afford it
if i did i'd go flat broke so i guess i'd better start saving
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9. |
IIWYSIB
03:04
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if i write you, send it back
and that seal better be intact
you should know now not to take my words with heed
i'd prefer not to only see you in my dreams
so many times i thought you had cursed me
then i figured you wouldn't waste that energy
i wonder what you think about
did the Backrooms ever glitch out?
i always thought that was deeper than it seemed
it's hard to say i wish we're friends
cause that was never the intent
to try we'd have to change everything
like that one night out on the dance floor,
a screaming match outside High Horse
drove 90 and drunk with my tank on E
we both wanted us to change
in the guise of bound soulmates
passion in the absence of restraint
i know there's more than just one kind
i still believe you're one of mine
maybe not in a way that could sustain
so if i write you, send it back
and that seal better be intact
we both know now when it's time to leave
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perfect storm
02:13
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one wrong turn and i totaled my car
one street over from the corner bar
secret roof, secret park,
secret shots of bourbon alone in the dark
that night, i said i wanted to "leave"
obviously it wasn't meant to be
"you have to talk to the people that love you"
you can't keep walking with secrets in your shoes
what you've done, you can't take back
now you can try to learn how to act
funny how i thought i was ashamed before
DUI, breakup, a perfect storm
burning paper on the equinox
surrounded by people, alone at RUX
guitar lesson on the 27th,
Logan's coming in on October 7th
new tattoo looks like a ruler,
but it's crooked as a dog's leg,
looks kinda stupid
marks on my body that i've made
physical is not the only change
now that this has happened, what's my next mistake?
i don't know, but i'll see how it goes.
seems like this was a perfect storm.
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now that i'm here,
01:35
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i've been imagining our decor
all your prints in between mine
and waking up in the morning
with you by my side
i don't even know if i'd
be ready for that
but I think about how much i love you,
makes me feel like i could fall flat
its not even the kisses
although i can't complain
its the way that when i'm with you
invites my secrets to come out and play
i'd be cool with it staying
just the way it is
but i wish that we lived closer
i could come over and visit
[now that i'm here, we split]
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12. |
sugar baby on repeat
01:58
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the night sugar baby played on repeat
i should have admitted my defeat
but that would've been too easy
and i knew i'd never get my heart to believe
that was the day i overslept
you could've come in but you just left
later that night after dollywood,
our sneaky diner dash didn't go so good
i think of how i asked you not to leave
and you told me you'd have to blindfold me
now i can see how so easily
right from the start it was split at the seams
i cry for myself and i cry for things
like how much it meant to see behind the scenes
i'd never want that time taken away from me
but i think some people you're meant to leave
eventually
eventually, it gets easy
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13. |
missing part
01:56
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didn't think i'd be talking to you for the rest of my life
although i wanted to, i never even tried
cause its easier to miss something that you have to live without
but always in dreams of you it pours easy out my mouth:
i'm so ashamed of what i put you through and i know that rings a bell
every day i couldn't talk to you was like missing part of myself
i feel so much about the fact that i was in that situation
people tried to advise, but that train had left the station
cause its easier to ignore the bad for the good of the moment
and once something's got you hooked its hard to not keep going
i'm so ashamed of what i put you through and i know that rings a bell
every day i couldn't talk to you was like missing part of myself
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